15 Asymmetrical / not

There were so many times I wanted to just lie to you. Tell you I’d only love you. Win you back over to me.

I couldn’t do it. I’d tried it once before and seen just how much I could hurt someone. And I couldn’t do it to you.

I watched you slowly fall in love with her, and I couldn’t tell if you wanted me to try to stop you. It drove you crazy that the two of us were still friends when it was clear what you felt for her and I felt for you. I very distinctly remember you finding us taking photos of each other in our bikinis and our tans, that summer when I came to visit, and you were baffled by the both of us.

And yet otherwise we were as open and honest with each other as any two people could be.

Polyamorous / most definitely not. The hardest asymmetry to bear. That’s why I kept you only in my head. Talking to the real you was too hard.

I’m glad I finally had the courage to come out.

I’m glad I finally had the courage to tell you how much you’ve always meant to me.

I always knew how much I trusted you. Now I know how much you trust me. It’s almost too much to bear. Not asymmetrical.